There are 10 days between now and the anniversary of Gus' death. Gus died last year on May 31st. Grieving has not been a bitter ordeal for me and I'm thankful for that. I know that some people can really struggle with the death of a child. Hear my heart here...I'm not saying that losing Gus has been easy. I am saying that I have not dwelt in that stage of grief where you are trying to place blame somewhere...on someone...something. I have been there but not for long. What is so tricky about grief is that there is no guarantee that I won't revisit that stage!
There's also no guarantee that those "crying spells" will hit you when you are at home, in private. Oh just the opposite is certainly going to happen and always when you least expect it! But, these "crying spells" are good for those who grieve. I embrace them!
So, if you see me crying in front of the shredded cheese section at the grocery store or at the back of the BloodMobile where all the snacks are....let your heart be glad because what you are seeing is my healing.
